The protocol my doctor put me on (after talking with the lactation consultant at our hospital) was not the usual protocol that you read about (i.e., not Newman-Goldfarb). I took estrogen only for four days and was told to start pumping on the first day without pills. My doctor didn't sound too optimistic given my history. Basically, she kept reiterating that induced lactation is most successful for women who previously breastfed and/or women who have don't problems with ovulation. And women who have been on hormones for several months. Since none of those apply to me, she was basically "well, let's give it the best shot we can now."
My approach to this was to give it a go, but also realize that the main benefit my son may be getting out of this is the bonding and not the actual milk. So with this attitude, Wednesday morning I got up early and hooked up the 'ole pump. That session was mostly a learning process since it was the first time I tried it out. Yes, it is odd. And it was particularly odd around noon when I was at work and hooked up the pump in my office. I have been wondering if I should leave my immediate work area, but I do have a private office and there is no other private place at my work (there is a designated pumping place, but it is a couch off to the side of a public bathroom, so not ideal). Anyway, I was there at work letting the pump do its thing while I tried to ignore it and focus on something else. And then I looked down and something was coming out! This was completely unexpected. I was not expecting anything at all for at least a week, if even then. Not the second time I pump.
I don't think it was milk, though. After my initial excitement of seeing something, I realized it is brownish and not looking like breastmilk. It is only coming out one breast. Then I started wondering if this is some type of discharge? I have read conflicting reports about whether people who induce lactation produce colostrum, so maybe it is that. It doesn't seem like enough that I could save it. Only a drop or two. But it has come out each time I pumped since yesterday at noon. At my pumping this evening, it started coming out of my other breast, too.
So I'm not sure what to make of this. Is it a good sign that this will work? Or just some discharge that doesn't mean breast milk will be coming?
2008 - ditched BC 2009 - Started treatments and testsand got a whole bunch of BFNs 2010 - The year of treatments January 2011 - Starting to look into adoption June 2011 - Homestudy approved! July-August 2011 - First match, and then it fell through January 2012 - Matched again! March 2012 - We finally bring home our baby boy!