Where do you find hope?

Is it a bad sign that your acupuncturist has more hope than you do? Yes, it has been two weeks since the IUI. No, I haven't tested. Honestly, I don't feel the need as I'm not feeling very hopeful this month. I do feel like AF is coming soon, but even before the past few days I didn't have much hope.

A new hope

I know at this stage I probably shouldn't have much hope each cycle. It gets disappointing to have AF come again and again. Getting my hopes up only makes it worse.

But still, here I am, calculating my expected due date if we're successful this cycle. Truth be told, I don't particularly want a Christmas baby. Of course I would be thrilled if it were to happen now, even though we had just gone through the stress of telling our families. I can't help but get a little excited once I saw the exact date from the due date predictor. December 28. That was the day of my parents got married. And then the day my half-sister got married. Well, so maybe that's not such a great omen, considering my parents divorced and I'm not even sure my sister knew it was the day her dad married his ex-wife. Is this a sign? If so, of what? Now the waiting game begins. I hate this part.